‘…I’m scared of what’s behind, and what’s before…’

And now, without further ado, we bring to you the triumphant return of the 30-day Blog Post. I needed a break to, basically, implode my life, and reconstruct it. [Further details later, if I feel like it.] So, I stopped posting here.

Now I’m back, and I’m determined to finish healing through words.

So…

Day 6
A song to match your mood. 

I consider music to be an extension of my emotions. I am constantly cleaving to music that I feel more aptly portrays my emotions than I could honestly hope to.

Music brings me hope. Hearing songs from artists that I feel completely align with my circumstances is a little bit like being discovered by a passing ship after years of being stranded on a deserted island.

I struggle a lot with sharing my emotions, because I feel misunderstood the majority of the time. I feel like no-one else in the world understands exactly what I’m feeling in my heart. I feel isolated, and different, and a bit ashamed of just how different from ‘normal’ people I am.

So, I turn to music.

Music and Lyrics give a solid idea to the abstract nuances of my mind.

Finding my emotions in a song after an emotional draught is a beautiful Nirvana.

My latest musical obsession is this little English Folk Band called ‘Mumford & Sons’. (Well, maybe not so little.)

I'm in love with these blokes.

I love the honesty in their music. The brilliance of that raw emotion in the instruments, the lyrics, the melody.

The true musicianship that is readily apparent with every strum of the guitar, or pluck of the banjo (Yes, BANJO. Stick with me here.) is breath-taking. They OWN their music. They’ve lived it.

And it’s beautiful.

To make a long story short, I love them. And their song ‘After the Storm’ literally brings tears to my eyes.

No other song that I have EVER heard so correctly describes the hopeful, almost hauntingly fragile, feeling that comes at the end of the storm.

The feeling that comes when, after you’ve been treading water for what feels like eternity, always afraid that you would drown, you finally break your head above water and see you are only one final stretch away from the shore.

The feeling you get when you realize that you are STRONGER and BIGGER than your trials, and you WILL NOT let them overcome you.

THAT feeling.

This song gave me hope, and light, and direction.

So, I would like for you to give it a listen.

I would hope that, even if this music bores you, you could understand the beauty of the emotion.

~*Post Title from ‘After the Storm’ by Mumford and Sons. Obviously.

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